Sometimes???

Sometimes I really do wonder about how and why and what I do. How totally insane am I? I have been advised to stay away from cash tables by very good poker playing friends of mine . They have witnessed the crazy atrosities I have created. But do I listen? Do I f#*k!

I know I can play cash very well but it only lasts for a limited period of time. I'll double or even triple up my stack but then something happens to my brain that makes me bust the lot. That last time, I started with $20 and turned it into $40. It was all good and I was happy with my outcome but there was one thing that really twisted my brain so bad I stopped being able to play poker. I was in the BB and checked with 45o. Flop 442. This dude went allin after we all checked for $18.75. I should have called but I pussied out thinking he had A4. He showed his QQ. It took half an hour for tilt to properly kick in but I couldn't stop thinking about how bad my fold was. I had to get some more money out of this table. I started raising up to ten times the BB with nothing and was getting called every time. Thats how I lost everything. I could not deal with the fact that I got bluffed off a monster pot and I totally lost it. Now I have nothing left at all and it really hurts. I know this would never have happened playing mtts but I did make $20 on cash before I lost it. I've put £5 into BluSq but dont feel confident or sober enough to play with it yet. I'm so gutted. I started with $2, turned it into $95, and rinced the whole lot like a drunken twat. Shame of it.

Anyway had a nice chat with a nice girl today and I think she understands my crazy drunken ways. Who knows? Maybe I bring in the future.

Always Put It In Cyder!!!